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This particular song is a song from my youth:

TO MARY

O how I long to sing you a song of love
To describe the warmth of your smile
The pureness of your heart.

O Mary our Queen of love, our way to the loving Son
Our beautiful way to the loving Son.

When I’m happy you are there to share it with me
When I’m grieving I can call and you’d console me

O how I long to sing you a song of love
To express the happiness that’s deep within my heart.
O Mary our Queen of love, our way to the loving Son
Oh teach us to follow you.

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At the hour of death the holy Masses you have heard devoutly will, be your greatest consolation.

Every Mass will be with you to Judgment and will plead for pardon for you.
By every Mass you can diminish the temporal punishment due to your sins, more or less, according to your fervour.

By devoutly assisting at Holy Mass you render the greatest homage possible to the Sacred Humanity of Our Lord.

Though the Holy Sacrifice, Our Lord Jesus Christ supplies for many of your negligences and omissions.

He forgives you all the venial sins which you are determined to avoid. He forgives you all your unknown sins which you never confessed. The power of Satan over you is diminished.

By piously hearing Holy Mass you afford the Souls in Purgatory the greatest possible relief.

One Holy Mass heard during your life will be of more benefit to you than many heard for you after your death.

Through Holy Mass you are preserved from many dangers and misfortunes which would otherwise have befallen you. You shorten your Purgatory by every Mass.

During Holy Mass you kneel amid a multitude of holy Angels, who are present at the Adorable Sacrifice with reverential awe.

Through Holy Mass you are blessed in your temporal goods and affairs.

When you hear Holy Mass devoutly, offering it to Almighty God in honour of any particular Saint or Angel; thanking God for the favours bestowed on him, etc., you afford that Saint or Angel a new degree of honour, joy and happiness, and draw his special love and protection on yourself.

"The Mass is the most perfect form of prayer!"
~Pope Paul VI~

For each Mass we hear with devotion, Our Lord sends a saint to comfort us at death.
~revelation of Christ to St. Gertrude the Great~

Once, St. Teresa was overwhelmed with God's Goodness and asked Our Lord "How can I thank you?" Our Lord replied, "ATTEND ONE MASS."

The Blessed Virgin Mary once told Her faithful servant Alain: "My Son so loves those who assist at the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass that, if it were necessary He would die for them as many times as they've heard Masses."

"The Holy Mass would be of greater profit if people had it offered in their lifetime, rather than having it celebrated for the relief of their souls after death." ~Pope Benedict XV~

A great doctor of the Church, St. Anselm, declares that a single Mass offered for oneself during life may be worth more than a thousand celebrated for the same intention after death. St. Leonard of Port Maurice supports this statement by saying that one Mass before death may be more profitable than many after it.

"When we receive Holy Communion, we experience something extraordinary - a joy, a fragrance, a well being that thrills the whole body and causes it to exalt."
~ Saint Jean Vianney~

"The celebration of Holy Mass is as valuable as the death of Jesus on the cross."
~Saint Thomas Aquinas~

"If we really understood the Mass, we would die of joy."
~ Saint Jean Vianney~

"There is nothing so great as the Eucharist. If God had something more precious, He would have given it to us."
~ Saint Jean Vianney~

"It would be easier for the world to survive without the sun than to do without Holy Mass. "
~St. Pio of Pietrelcina (Padre Pio), stigmatic priest~

"When we have been to Holy Communion, the balm of love envelops the soul as the flower envelops the bee."
~ Saint Jean Vianney~

"The heavens open and multitudes of angels come to assist in the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass. "
~Saint Gregory~

"The angels surround and help the priest when he is celebrating Mass."
~ St. Augustine ~

"When Mass is being celebrated, the sanctuary is filled with countless angels who adore the divine victim immolated on the altar."
~ St. John Chrysostom~

Kung alin sa palagay mo ang di mo kakayanin, mas lalo mong pagsikapang gawin, sapagkat kung magawa mo ito, lalo mong mapapatunayan na ang Diyos ang gumagawa sa iyo.

In life, what matter is
not what you bought, but what you built
not what you got, but what you shared
not your success, but your significance
not what you learned, but what you taught

Live a life
that matters,
that shares,
that cares,
that loves.

We won't know God as our Healer until we experience and recognize His healing in our lives spiritually, emotionally, mentally, or physically. We can't know Him as Provider if we are not in need. We won't know Him as our Banner unless we need Him for victory.

The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, not to worry about the future, not to anticipate troubles, but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly.

“Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.”

Niloob ng Diyos na maranasan natin ang maraming pagsubok sa ating buhay -- ang

- mawalan
- masaktan
- mabigo
- mapahiya
- magalit
- magkasala
- magkamali

-- hindi upang wasakin ang buhay na patuloy na pinagkakaloob sa atin, kundi ang matutunan natin ang

- magpakakumbaba
- magpatawad
- umunawa
- magbigay
- magmalasakit at
- magmahal ng lubos.

At sa bawat pagsubokl na ationg napagtagumpayan,. ay kaloob nito ang ibayong sigka at pag-asa upang harapin ang hamon ng bukas, kasama ng ating Dakilang Diyos.

I can’t forget these past few days. I’ve never been so attacked in life as these days of heavy raining.

As if feeling alone (I am not closing my door on the probability of romance and settling down) and unaccomplished at my age isn’t enough of a cross, I’m now in danger of being jobless, after the Australian project I’ve been working on abruptly ended due to changes in the client’s plan. God knows I’ve been wishing it to end because I had found the work more and more enervating in its repetitiveness, but I didn’t expect it to end in such a rude manner, which left me feeling helpless and humiliated.

As though this was not enough, I’ve been battling with health issues for more than a year now – hypertension and signs of ageing, withdrawal symptoms, side effects from the medicine I’ve been taking, including a possible interaction with the herbal supplement. This has brought me dizziness, weakness, tiredness, anxiety, palpitations, and sometimes depression. This particular hardship makes me feel like I could go anytime, so I live life from day to day. But this scares me, for I don’t think I am ready to pack my bags. The sad irony is that I just came from a deep psychological recovery, which has made me feel that my life has just begun. I have been anticipating a restart at 40, so I have welcomed this new decade as a new chapter with much excitement. Instead, I feel like I am punched in the face, to quote someone. It’s an awful reality that is sometimes best left denied than accepted. ...Until real life reminds it in my face, that is, in moments when I desire to dash to the mall for some items and I couldn’t anymore.

It doesn’t help that friends laugh at me, for being like a hypochondriac elderly, while here I am feeling like it’s the end of my days. It’s quite insulting, if I did not stretch my understanding.

My arrears in my rent are piling up too, while the apartment is crumbling before my eyes with the passing of the extreme seasons (literally blowing hot and cold). I feel quite guilty and humiliated whenever I am reminded of my cousin (who owns the place) from whom I owe so much money. The least I could do is spend for the repair of the house, but I couldn’t do even that due to lack of funds. I am not sure how I can stretch what I have, given that I have stretched it to the limit. How much more should I give up?

I have a sister who’s going through so much in her marital life. She says there’s a third party, so of course it bothers me how she’s coping and how the three kids, whom I love dearly, would think and feel.

I am also deeply affected each time a little niece or nephew gets sick. Two of them did, one after the other; the first a case of fever, flu, and diarrhea, and the second a case of mysterious rashes. I didn’t foresee that blessings like children could also be sources of great worry, when I’m not even their father. I guess the bigger problem is me, or my excessive engagement with my family, as the savior.

Just last month, a younger brother’s wife, whose sudden pregnancy and civil wedding brought me resentful feelings, suddenly gave birth prematurely. The stress from the thought of where to find some cash to help them out, plus the anxiety over the fragility of the newborn, added up to my worries.

In a way, I had anticipated all these attacks. After all, I’ve been very active lately in service in the fields of the Lord, as though to make up for lost time, the years I spent soul-searching outside the confines of my community. I’ve been active in the prolife advocacy, including anti-LGBT matters, evangelization of some young professionals in Ayala plus a youth group in Bulacan, plus my usual tasks/duties in community: choir member, fixing assembly materials after the gathering, the self-imposed note-taking I do, and attendance in assemblies and activities. I am very certain the enemy is not very happy with me.

But then, I noticed that some of my friends also go through the wringer like I do, even though they are not really active in service. One is even an avowed atheist, and yet he is not spared of suffering. He has reported being rushed to the ER because of phlegm, which left him unable to breath, delayed salary in the school he’s teaching at, and father issues. Another friend reported about his place being flooded, damaging his car, and meanwhile his mother is confined at the Heart Center for a serious ailment. I wouldn’t know what to do if I were in their place.

“Life is like that,” the latter friend told me. The reaction is consoling, I have to admit. I feel relieved to know that I’m probably not being punished for my past sins all the while I was giving my all, my 101%, to God. I know I should be consoled by the fact that no one is spared of suffering while going through this life.

What was I expecting anyway? I must have thought that, since I was serving full-blast, I’d be favored by God with peace, happiness, and loads of material goods. Maybe I have been unconsciously bribing God, paying him with good works and sacrifices, to manipulate him into loving me, or at least preventing him from letting me be tormented with simultaneous moments of suffering. Maybe I’m afraid of God, and now that he allowed what scared me the most (facing squarely the possibility of sudden, even painful, death), I can’t help but feel angry.

These days of trial, however, have brought me to the end of my spiritual rope, enough to learn to pray: Lord, help me love you right because I just can’t, on my own. You know that I can’t. Help me learn to follow you not because of fear but out of love. Help me to love you and believe you even through so much hardship, or as that song about (ironically illicit) love says, "through the limit, through the wall." Don’t give up on me even when I feel like giving up on you.

This is really not the first time I’ve been in this place – I’ve been here several times enough to be able to complain as cheekily as Teresa of Avila did (“That’s why you have very few friends.”) -- but this seems the worst thus far. In moments like this, I keep near me the scrapbooks of blessings (of the obvious and happy sort) that I’ve compiled through the years to remind me how much I’ve been favored in various unexpected ways. In a way, this act is sad because I know that each time I hit my archive of marvelous memories, I know I’m in the bottom of the barrel again.

What I really earnestly wish for is not for the sweet memories of the past long gone to suddenly resurrect, but for this heavy rain to just stop. If God wills it, I want my life back. While I’m grateful for the breakthroughs (my niece and nephew getting well, for one), I will be even more grateful if God intervened so as not to prolong the agony. How much more hurdles can I jump over? How much more heavy downpour to survive the ensuing flood? I’m afraid not much.

So dear God: You know I am not a saint, so please bear with me.

TRLV’s former spiritual director Fr. Jun Lingad, SVD, explains the Biblical basis of the name of the Risen Lord’s Vineyard community -- after 25 long years.

In the retreat he gave on July 22, 2012 at the Layforce Auditorium, San Carlos Seminary (Guadalupe, Makati City), Fr. Jun asked us participants to situate ourselves at the Last Supper, where many things happened.

He told us to dwell on this particular passage, John 15: 5-17, which is an account of the Last Supper. Specifically, he focused on the following line as the Biblical basis of the theme of the retreat:

“Bearing much fruit which will remain” (Jn. 15:5-16).

Here’s a partial transcript of his Biblical reflections.

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When you study Scripture you should bring everything you have, your intelligence, memory, imagination, senses, experience, etc. (Fr. Jun invites us to take this stance as we reflect together on the passages pertaining to the Last Supper.)

As we know, during the Last Supper, many things happened, including the betrayal of Jesus by Judas. In the Last Supper, Jesus showed his love for his own. He held the first Eucharist, the most important monument of his love. In the Last Supper, He also first instituted priesthood.

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Of course, prior to the Last Supper, Jesus had to give example by washing the disciples’ feet, as though to say, “Christians should be foot-washers.” By washing the feet of His disciples, He gave them His new commandment (“Love one another as I have loved you”).

The Biblical account of the Last Supper is in the last chapters of Jn. 15, particularly chapters 13 to 17. This means that the middle of the chapter is chapter 15. This is significant, as we will see later.

We should be careful when it is Jesus who talks in a given passage. If a good teacher teaches, you notice not just what he teaches, but also how he teaches it.

Christ is the wisdom of God. What He teaches must contain wisdom. Also, how he teaches shows his wisdom. Therefore, pay attention to not just what Christ says but also how he says it.

(If we follow the Way (Christ), we get to the Truth, the Way, the Life Eternal. There’s a saying in Latin: “Doing follows being,” What you are comes out of your action.)

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Reflecting on the Biblical passage using your imagination requires a bit of work. For example, when you look at the cross, it’s so unreal, washed up, and made beautiful. The real cross is different ““ there is sweating of blood, excruciating pain, agony after the scourging “Excruciating” (from “crucis,” meaning “cross”) means “pain beyond description.” Have you ever taken a long hard look at the cross? It’s the same with Christmas. Look at the tidied-up crib versus the real stable or manger. Imagine the stench and there being no place in the inn for the Holy Family, etc.

When you see the cross, you don’t just see a cross (with a bloodied man on it). It is also a symbol. The cross really means passion. What is weakness to the Jews and foolishness to the Greeks is something powerful to Christians. To us Christians, death is not the last word. Christ has died, Christ is risen, and so shall we!

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When Jesus said, “Deny yourself, take up your cross, and follow Me,” notice the priority order. It is meant to be that way: You must first empty yourself of your own thoughts and desires before you are able to accept and embrace your cross and be a disciple of God.

Denying yourself means repentance or, in Latin, “metanoia,” literally “changing (one’s) mind.”

However, changing yourself is not a one-time act. When Jesus said, “Repent and be baptized,” he meant a continuous act of repentance.
Unfortunately, the English translation was unable to capture the
nuances of the Greek verb tenses. The original Greek used “metanoeite” (meaning “continue changing your mind”) and not “matanoeisate” (meaning “change your mind once and for all.”) What it means to be a Christian, therefore, is to continue changing your mind, continue denying yourself.

Make your own the mind of Christ Jesus. Otherwise you’re not Christians.

Hindi ba’t pag binyag, sa ulo binabasa, hindi sa kamay o paa? Kasi doon magpapalit ng isipan!

But Jesus Christ knew it’s so hard to change our minds. If you’re honest with yourself, you’ll find that repentance or changing your mind is not the easiest thing to do.

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Again, unfortunately, the English translation put it this way: ”But grow in grace and in the knowledge of our Lord and Savior.” (NAB)

The more accurate translation, however, is this: ”Instead continue to grow in the grace and knowledge of Jesus Christ.” (NJB)

Be committed to this! This is what commitment is about.

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In the English Bible translation, it says, “Ask and you shall receive.” This is another erroneous translation, leading us to think that the moment we ask, we should receive the answer at once. Instead, it should be, “Continue to ask...”

Again, being committed to this is not the easiest thing to do. This is where being in community is a big help.

The word “church” is from the Greek ekklesia, from the root words kaleo, calling, or kle, called, and ekkle, meaning called out (to salvation).

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When you’re a teacher, you teach the most important things first. You don’t bother with unimportant matters.

When a teachers teaches in parables, notice the words used and whether these word are used several times. This means the words are being stressed or emphasized and are thus important.

In Jn. 15: 1-16, God the Father’s role is emphasized, as the Vine-grower, a way of saying, “We grow in vain without God’s blessings.”
Notice the following keywords used and how many times they are mentioned:

I am 2x
True vine 4x
My father 4x
Vine grower
Branch 4x
Bear fruit 6x
Prunes
Bears
You 30x
The world 2x
Remain 11x
Father loves 9x
Commandments 5x
Joy 2x

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One of the most often-repeated terms is “remain.”

Remaining in the vine means going through a pruning process. In order to bear fruit, we must be pruned. As we know, the pruning process is painful.

The vine-grower knows exactly where to prune. He knows the fruit grows near the main branch. In pruning the vine, only three branches remain: those that are sure to bear fruit.

During the pruning process, we ask (in pain), “Why, Lord, why?” But the Lord answers, “And why not? I’d like you to bear fruit. Don’t you like that?”

You will be pruned by the Word of God. The pruning process is through the Word, because “the Word cuts like a two-edged sword” (Heb. 4: 12).

Kung magaling kang umibig, di ka tatamaan.

But God heals while He strikes. He gives only medicinal punishments.
In verse 4, it says that if you don’t remain, you become weak. You will not be able to fulfil your commitment.

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Note, too, that you are to “bear much fruit,” not just “fruit.”

Note further that it says, “Because without me, you can do nothing” ““ He said “nothing” not “very little.” The meaning of “Christian” is, therefore, remove “Christ” and “I Am Nothing.”

These are Jesus’ own words. You don’t edit the word of Jesus.

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Why is “Father loves” mentioned nine times?

Because basically our commitment is to love. And love is shown in practice: obeying His commandments.

(There is another mistranslation in the New Jerusalem Bible: “If you obey my teachings, you will be indeed my disciples” (Jn. 8:30). The original Greek has: “you are,” not “you will be.” If you obey, you are a disciple, not “will be,” as though subject to a few more conditions.)

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“You” is also mentioned a lot.

“You” in ch. 13-16 refers to the disciples, and in ch. 17 to the Father.

But “you” also refers to you. God is speaking to you. You are important to God.

And God says: “You ask whatever you want and will be done for you.” If you obey God, He promises answered prayers!

If we are blessed, the love of God flows to others.

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But being a disciple does not mean the absence of suffering. God didn’t spare Jesus of suffering after He prayed in agony at Gethsemane. Jesus went through the crucifixion nonetheless, saying, “Your will be done.”

But in our suffering, He will see us through (as the Father saw Jesus through resurrection).

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In the Bible, God’s love is always concrete. It always comes with action. He gave His only begotten Son.

Love is always giving and forgiving, always an action, not abstraction. The Bible does not say, “God so loved the world and He smiled.”

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Notice that the word “joy” is used, not “happiness.”

The word “happy” is from the root word “hap,” which means “chance,” thus the words “perhaps,” which is the synonym of “perchance,” meaning “half his chance,” and “mishap,” which means “bad chance.” This means happiness depends on chances, on circumstances. Happiness is unsure; it requires conditions.

Unlike happiness, joy is absolute, a gift of God. JOY means “Jesus,” “others,” and “you” -- in that order.

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As Christians, we wear the Christian uniform called love, by being kind, having a forgiving nature, and the rest of the attributes enumerated in the Beatitudes (which is really a description of the character of Jesus).

In chapter 13, notice that Jesus has no more to give. He has given everything he has, even his mother. Earlier, He has promised the Holy Spirit. At the very end, He gave everything: he gave His life.

He didn’t have to do that!

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“If you love me you will obey, you will keep my commandments.”

This lies at the very center of chapter 15, the middle chapter of the Last Supper (chapter 13-17). This is the dead center of the whole construction.

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“This is my commandment: love one another as I have loved you.” This is the summary of the whole passage.

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“You are my friends.” The significance of these words gathers even more weight if you consider that they were uttered by Jesus before dying.

What is a friend? In Tagalog, we say “kaibigan,” and its word is “pag-ibig,” meaning “love.” To be a friend is to be someone who is loved.

It’s always like that in other language. The Spanish “amigo,” the Italian “amicu,” and the French “amie” all came from the root word, “amor,” “amores,” the Latin for “love.” The German “freund”/”freunden” seems a different matter at first glance, but upon closer look, it’s the same. When Germans say “I love you,” they say “Ich liebe dich” -- “liebe” means love, “lieben” to love. But “lieben” came from the Old English past participle verb “freon,” meaning “to love.” The English “love” is no different from the word “friend.” The Greek for “friend” is “philos,” from the verb “philei,” to love.” Similarly, the Hebrew for friend is “ohev,” “to love” is “ahav.”

Near the moment of His death, You and I are at the very center of Jesus’s heart. “You are my friend.”

Don’t you ever forget that, come what may.

You don’t open your heart to just anyone. You only open your heart to family, to friends. And you don’t call everyone your friend.

Three times before He died, He said this. This is His last will and testament, His huling habilin!

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(Notice, however, that compared to Jesus’s declaration of His love for us, sometimes we eat our words. Tulak ng bibig kabig ng dibdib.)

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Who is Jesus to you? He is your Lord and Savior, yes, but more than that, what?
He is first and foremost your friend!

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Jesus is so true to this through the very end. Remember what Jesus said to Judas when He was caught by the Roman soldiers: “Friend, will you betray me with a kiss?”

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Finally, remember that it isn’t you who chose. From verse 16, we know it is Jesus who chose us first, and His choice is irrevocable!

Introduction: From the last three talks, we discussed that God loves us unconditionally. After the Fall, God devised a plan of saving us through His son, Jesus Christ. To be saved, we must respond to God’s offer of salvation, and this is realized through the gifts of repentance and faith.

This talk is about going back to God through repentance and faith (pagsisisi at pananampalataya). Yes, the two come together because we can’t repent if we don’t believe we are forgiven.

What is repentance? Pagsisisi, from the Greek word metanoia (changing one’s mind).

Why repent? Because our first parents sinned and we inherited their sinfulness. Our Lord Jesus Christ made up for their mistake (by becoming the new Adam), but we must do the same by doing our part. We need to choose to repent and believe in him to be saved.

Why? Is Jesus’ sacrifice not complete yet? No. It’s because God respects our free will. He granted us the power to say yes or no.

What is not repentance?

We are afraid of repentance, so let’s first clarify what it is not.

1. It is not feeling rotten about ourselves. (We can be remorseful of the consequences of our sin yet are not sorry for the sin.)

2. It is not just getting rid of the desire to sin. (We can’t completely get rid of our fallen nature.

Repentance doesn’t mean we will never sin again, but it should mean we sin less and less.) 3. Repentance is not just about feelings. It is feelings plus decision. It means change of heart and mind that leads to action. It is change from within. (Eph 4:22-24)

List of sins we must avoid, in repentance. See. Gal. 5: 19-21.

1. Sexual sins – premarital sex, extramarital sex, necking, petting, masturbation, homosexual acts, pornography. Sex is for married people only, for unitive and procreative purposes. Hindi hobby ang sex. The Bible is very strict with sex because sex is sacred. Eph 5: 3.

2. Horoscope, superstition, spiritista, kulam, fung shui, non-Christian religions. Gal 5:20. God is a jealous God. If you’re in love with someone, you’re jealous. Pinoys are segurista – may Sto. Nino ma, may Buddha at feng shui pa.

3. Drug abuse – drunkenness, etc.

4. Stealing – corruption, cheating, bribery, which are cause of poverty

5. Cursing, slander, gossip, lying – The easiest way to sin is through the tongue. The tongue is small but terrible. It says praise God, alleluia, then tells green jokes, curses, gossip, etc.

Tip: Go to a Catholic bookstore for a more complete list of sins.

(Insert here a personal sharing or testimony of the past sins you have repented for.)

Why must we obey God? It’s not just because He said so. It’s because He wants to protect us. Rules are there to protect, not to restrict. Ex.: If we don’t obey God, we get sex diseases, accidents, court cases, loss of friends, etc. God wants us to have a good life! He is hurt if we are hurt.
Sin is separation from God. God suffers.

The four steps to repentance

1. Be honest – Don’t call cheating sharing, gossip sharing, getting drunk relaxation, porn art. Don’t be afraid. God loves us for who we are, even with our darkest sin. Alam naman nya lahat! Kita ka naman ng lahat ng santo as anghel sa langit.

2. Be humble – We can’t change on our own. We need God’s grace.

3. Renounce sin – Exert an effort to leave behind a life of sin. Burn bad reading materials, lucky charms, feng shui. Stop green jokes. Etc. Because we each have our own special weaknesses, change doesn’t happen overnight.

4. Confess - Why go to confession when you know you’ll sin again? Going to confession doesn’t mean you won’t sin again or be tempted again, but it should mean you have lesser and lesser sins and God sees your effort. The benefits of confession are: grace, accountability, peace of mind.

(Insert here a sharing of your experience of confession.)

What is faith? Faith is form the Greek word pistis, meaning to entrust, meaning no anxiety, only sincere and genuine surrender.

1. Repentance is not complete without faith. Why? Because it requires faith to believe that God has forgiven us and that He’ll give us the grace to carry on.

2. Faith is the belief that Jesus never lies! In Mt 14, Jesus walked on water, and the apostles’ faith in Jesus made them step out on water.

3. Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we don’t see. (Heb 11:1)

4. But faith is about a catalog of Jesus’ promises, not our own wish list. We often confuse these two: what God wants versus what we want.

What are God’s promises if we repent and believe? There are three: Eternal life (Jn 3:16), salvation (Acts 16:31), and forgiveness (Eph 1:7-8).

Important : Forgive yourself! Believe that God has forgiven you in confession.

Closing prayer: What are you going through right now? Sickness? No money? Problems in school/at work? Family problems? Misunderstanding? Unforgiveness? Disappointed with friends? Believe that Jesus will deliver you from it, but in His own time.